Balding already??????

Holy pajamas! I woke up to my baby's head of hair looking like this:

What in the world????? I mean, he seriously had an even amount of hair all over his head 2 days ago! Yesterday I noticed it a little, but when I picked him up from his crib this morning I pretty much saw my reflection in his bald spot (and once again noticed how terrible my own hair is looking!)! I heard that babies sometimes loose their hair, but I had no idea it would be this sudden? I thought I was past the the stage of hair loss?? Has this happened to anyone else? This drastic? Will it all fall out? Grow back soon?? Normally I wouldn't really care... but this is 911, people!! 3 month pictures will be taken this weekend!!!

Happy 3 months, Foxie!!

I can't believe that it has been 3 months!! Honestly, sometimes I feel like it has been 3 years, thanks to the acid reflux situation, but now that things have been so much better I look at him now and feel a little sad about how big he is. At church yesterday we were talking to some friends that had a 1 and a half week old. That baby looked soooo tiny next to Knox. Even though we had sort of a rough start, I would never trade it and I am sad to know that I will never get that "new baby" stage back with Knoxie. It's kind of funny because I was thinking yesterday that because we went through a hard beginning and are now able to see through all the smoke, I feel like that has drawn us closer?? Weird?? I don't know. Maybe it's just that I am just now able to really enjoy him and relax a little. I also know that I should be thankful because in retrospect there are thousands of other people who are dealing with much worse.

Anyways, 3 months ago I was in labor as we speak! I remember waking up before Lee, feeling like something might be happening but didn't want to call the Dr. and risk embarrassment of a false alarm. I went to get some cereal and definitely realized something was different. Woke Lee up (which can be a challenge) and told him. He didn't really believe me :). I walked to the bathroom and then all of a sudden...Woosh! Lee even heard my water break from the bedroom and he flew out of bed to come help me. I was totally grossed out. By the time we called the doctor and all of our family I was in the worse pain of my life. After attempting to get a shower and finish packing my bags, Lee had to pretty much carry me out of the house. I was screaming BLOODY MURDER! Everyone had previously told us that if my water were to break I needed to relax, take a shower, maybe get a nap in...it was going to take a while. Please. I have never experienced such quickening pain in my life. So...Lee sped to the hospital looking like he had seen a ghost, I screamed the entire way (while trying to fix my hair...a failed attempt), and when we got there I told Lee not to get me a wheel chair...that I could walk by myself. I took 2 steps inside the front doors and my knees buckled. Watching Lee run around the hospital like a chicken without it's head was priceless. It was a Sunday so not many people were around, and Lee was screaming for help. Haha. By the time I got checked in and into a room, the doc came to check me...5 cm dilated. Within an hour I was 9 cm dilated. Funny that my name is Regan because if you would have seen me before the epidural (yes, I am weak. I got the drugs), I was clenching the bed and screaming at the top of my lungs while having convulsions...you might have been reminded of Regan from the movie "The Exorcist." As soon as they gave me the epidural it was like nothing had happened. Like I wasn't even in labor. Good stuff. Anyways, once my family got there (they all had to speed form Mobile and Spanish Fort), I pushed for 20 min and little Knoxie was here! Wow. I had no intention of typing any of this story, but once I started I couldn't stop. It is such a fun memory for us. I originally planned to be induced on that following Tuesday, and even though the way it happened was hectic, I love that we will always remember it the way we do and will be able to look back and laugh. Thanks for taking a stroll down memory lane with me.

Here's Foxie's 3 month crib picture. This little stinker is growing like a weed! We don't go back to the doctor until his 4 month check up, so I don't have any stats. He loves sitting in his bumbo seat, watching Praise Baby DVD's, looking at and listening to his monkey mobile, taking baths, checking out Maddox, smiling and laughing at me singing (should I be offended? I don't think he's laughing "with" me, if you know what I mean), car rides, being read to, and going on walks with mommy and daddy. Oh, and he loves to be outside. Loves it. As you saw in the last post, he is Lee's mini. Although, his hair is RED! Lee's had some red in it when he was little, which is crazy to me because it is so dark now. Who knows what Knox's will end up doing. I just pray that his temper won't match his hair right now :)

We went to the park after church yesterday. Please excuse my hair in the pic. Be comforted by the fact that I have a hair appt this Friday. I know it definitely comforts me. Oh, and don't doubt that I am rocking my Chi-O tee from college. It was breezy out and I don't have many long sleeve tee shirts. Don't judge me. Lee, of course, changed from his church attire into a polo button down. He knows not the meaning of casual attire, making me look like a slob half of the time!

Lee Lawson...

could never ever deny his child (not that he wants to :))!

Knox:

Knox:

Lee:

Lolli came and watched Knox for a little bit the other day and took these pictures! I knew Knox looked like Lee, but when I saw these pics side by side...goodness! The only difference is Knox has more red in his hair and his eyes are blue. Other than that...it's a mini-Lee (and i LOVE it!)!

Surprise!

My sweet sweet sweet sweet sweet friend Chastity came over tonight so that Lee and I could go on an actual date!! Without a baby! We surprised Lee and didn't tell him, so when she showed up Lee was like, "Ummm, Hi Chas!?! Whats up?" It was really funny. He was very shocked and surprised that I would leave the house without Knox (only for about an hour, by the way. Still not ready for long absences :)) As much as I love Knox, it was a nice treat to get out of the house and have an adult dinner - stress free! I love Chas. She is so sweet. We were roommates in college and now we go to church together. She has the most incredible heart. I am very thankful for her friendship, and I am so glad we live in the same town again. She is definitely a baby lover, and I hope to one day soon be watching her little ones so that she can have a date night with her hubby! Thanks, Chas! You rock (sorry that your head got cut off a little in this pic)!

Knox just woke up from his nap and had a fun surprise waiting on him!

Lee's excited face...and showing Chas how to use the remote. She looks so tiny compared to him...

Sweet friend!

"Foxie Knoxie"

Since things were pretty tough at the Lawson residence there for a while, I went home to my mom and sister quite a bit for the extra help. Here are a few snaps that were taken while we were down there. The girls are absolutely obsessed with "baby Knox" and are thrilled every time we come down. Sister usually doesn't tell them, we let it be a surprise. It's way fun because most of the time the big girls are in school and when they come home Knox and I will hide somewhere in the house and they FREAK OUT when they find us...sometimes I put Knox in his car seat on the front steps and ring the doorbell and hide in the bushes and Robyn lets them answer, etc. They started calling Knox "Foxie Knoxie" from the very beginning and my sister and I died laughing! love those girls. They are the cutest, sweetest things ever and I feel like they are mine half the time. Still hoping that someday soon we will be reunited!!!

Hanging out on Carley's bed...

Letting Ashton sing to me...

"Big-sister cousin" holding me (thats what Carley calls herself)

All this loving is making me sleepy :)

And we can't forget "Mama Abbie"...always taking care of everyone!

How can you not love her??????

They even love my first born just the same...

2 month update...

Hello fellow bloggers! Life has been a little hectic lately, but I just wanted to post little man's stats and send out a HUGE PRAISE because he officially does NOT have colic! Whoop whoop. Instead, he has acid reflux-which is extremely painful and sad-but with the help of our new friends Axid, Metoclopramide, and Mylanta (his meds), he has been feeling sooooo much better. Which, in turn, has made me feel sooooo much better! I have been able to do some new things with him lately such as put him down in his little swing and vibrating chair and clean the kitchen while singing and dancing to him (OK...maybe I rap a little bit to him), and he actually smiles and laughs at me! I know this sounds silly, but this is a big deal since he has never done this before! I feel like I am an actual mother with a baby that likes me now! Please join me in praying that the medicine continues to work, and even more so that the Lord would heal him of the reflux completely! So far there has been a night and day difference with his behavior and there is no one else to give glory to other than the Lord!

Here are his 2 month stats:

weight- 12 pounds - 55th percentile

height- 23 and 3/4 inches - 85th percentile

He is looking more and more like his daddy with every day that goes by, with reddish / brownish hair!!

Prayer

Warning: This post was created by an extremely sleep deprived mommy!

On a serious note, I am definitely sleep deprived. Just wanted to start by throwing that bit of info out there. Knox is only 8 weeks old, and I can't remember what it was like to have a full night's sleep!

So...I have been talking to Lee a little bit over the past few days about why I have the blog, and what is the purpose of it? I guess my first instinct is to say that I can keep up with friends and hear whats going on in every one's lives...which is very true, and I really enjoy that. Then we talked a little more about the things that I post on my blog. The answer? Only happy or positive things that might make me look like I have it all together. Notice that I haven't really had any recent posts lately?? That's because life hasn't been so easy the past few weeks, hence the lack of blogging. I have actually thought about not blogging anymore because I am fearful that it wouldn't be an honest blog, but then I had an idea...what if I blogged about the good AND the bad, and honestly told people the hard things that are going on in my life as well, so here we go!

Well, let me first say that I still don't understand how or why the Lord has entrusted me as a mother. I know there are people out there, close friends included, that are unable to conceive and it astounds me that the Lord allowed me to have Knox. There is absolutely nothing in my life that I have done to deserve him. In fact, I think it's just the opposite...I have done everything NOT to deserve him. But for some reason He allowed it, and I will never fully understand why. I do know that He is using Knox to teach me. Now, am I being a good student??? Don't make me answer that! :) The thing is this: my personality has become ridiculously A-type over the past few years. I don't know where it came from, but I have it. I kept telling myself when I was pregnant that I would probably have to throw that out the window, and boy was I right. Just because I was right doesn't mean that I actually threw it out the window... I am still holding on to it as much as I can, which is making having a newborn so much harder...

When Knox first came home, he slept peacefully for at least 6 hours through the night. What a breeze! Lee and I were like, "We can totally do this! We could have like 5 of these!!!" Well, then my little buddy starting wanting to eat all day everyday, then my milk supply started running low and I had to start supplementing which made me feel like a failure (my head knows that this is TOTALLY a lie, but my heart still has a hard time with it), then his little tummy starting having some painful issues which we are still dealing with, then the doctor confirmed that he has colic, and now we are hoping to get a few good hours of sleep in a night! Goodness. I will be honest, feeling like a failure of a mommy has been a huge issue for me lately. Sometimes I am bitter with the Lord because these are all things that we committed to praying for while I was pregnant, and I feel like its all coming apart bit by bit! I know that the Lord is sovereign and faithful, but sometimes I just wish He did it MY way, ya know ( I hope you sense the sarcasm)?? I think that I just pictured a sweet, quiet, peaceful baby that slept through the night early on, RARELY cried, and smiled at me all the time. Haha. Wouldn't that be ideal?? The truth is that we have SO much to be thankful for. Knox is a healthy baby and there is nothing more important than that. A little fussiness and lack of sleep can be considered a dream to couples who are going through much worse, and I never want to lose sight of that. I never imagined feeling so much love for something so small, and no matter how much sleep I am "deprived" of...nothing will change that. I would do this 100 times over just to have Knox in my arms!

Another thing is that I miss my sister and mother more than I could ever imagine. I have lived away from them before, but having a baby in the mix now just makes it a little more tough for me. My sister and I always imagined living down the street from each other and raising our kids together, and I am sad that God does not have that in His plan for now. I also miss my sweet, sweet friends from our church in Fairhope that became our family as well. It's hard to live in a new place and to try to get involved in a new church when you have a new baby on your hands! I will say that our church here has been very sweet to us and has reached out to us since Knox's birth, and we are very thankful for that! I am excited about getting to know the women and ALL the children that go to Eastwood. Each family seriously has a minimum of 4 kids. Some have up to 7 or 8. I am not kidding...it's an ongoing joke that you have to produce a LOT of kids to be a member there!

I feel like I have rambled a lot on this post. I guess I am just really asking for prayer. Some of the few people that actually keep up with this blog already know most of what I posted about, but some of you don't. Please pray that the Lord would just be with Knox and heal his little belly, and help him to feel comfortable and have an easy spirit. And for me, please pray that my rest would be multiplied and that I would just be laid back and not expect a perfect schedule from Knox right now. And also that my heart would trust that the Lord is good at ALL times...even at 4 a.m. in the morning , and know that where I fall short, HE will provide. And lastly...please pray for my husband, that he wouldn't think that his wife is a basket case!!